What's the point of the holidays? Christmas is a given. But Thanksgiving all the others. It just serves to put people together that don't get along and to make us miserable. We rush from one house to the other and eat so much that we are sick for days. We pretend to like people that truly make us miserable for the sake of "Family Time". We put up with all the rude comments for the sake of "Family Time". We spend tons of money we don't have so that "Santa Claus" can live on in our kids lives for another year. I'm not allowed to tell my 7 year old yet that "Santa" is just an excuse for us to spoil our kids and get away with it. His dad would rip me a new one if I did. Granted, his dad has plenty of help in that department. This year for thanksgiving, I'm going to grill some burgers and watch the Cowboys sink further into oblivion. Ryan will go to his dad's family this year. It's just going to be Jim and I. No more making my sister rush from in-laws to us. No more trying to plan around everyone else's plans this year. I'm done with it. I'm not going to listen to people gripe about the money I've spent on the food as they eat it all and leave nothing for leftovers. No more listening to people gripe about the money I've spent on presents for Ryan even though I bought the ones they gave him. Santa is only bringing one thing to our house this year because not every kid goes to multiple houses for Christmas........yet. We will tell the Christmas story and why we celebrate it. But we aren't going all out anymore. I'm giving up. It's all about my husband and my son this year. Where Ryan wants to go for the holidays is up to him this year. He's old enough to choose. I'm done trying to figure out how to fairly split the holidays with his dad because I want to be selfish with my time with him. His dad isn't home like I am. Technically I get way more time anyways because I stay home. That's being selfish. That's not fair to Ryan or his dad. I'm not going to spend another holiday season stressing myself out until I'm sick. I'm not going to spend crazy amounts of money that I don't have to feed people who are sooo ungrateful for it. Burgers and Chips with parades and football. If you want to come over great. Bring something you want to eat. It's potluck. I have a 27" TV with no cable. We can watch whatever is on broadcast TV. I will be thankful this year for a gracious God who has blessed me with a beautiful son and a wonderful husband. I will be thankful for a gracious God that has forgiven my sins and will allow me to enter heaven when my time comes. I'm not going to try to please everyone all the time because nobody cares. I try to go all out to show my family how much I appreciate ALL the things they have done for my husband, son and I and all I hear is $$$$$$$. I quit. I will just start handing over the cash and be done with it. I'm not buying gas anymore. I'm not buying lunches anymore. I'm not paying for nails anymore. I'm not doing anything anymore but handing over cash because that's all people care about. People want to see us, they can call and plan a time for them to come see us. I'm not driving all over God's beautiful green earth to them anymore. Just because gas is under $2 doesn't mean I can afford it anymore. It just means I can save it to fix the next thing that may go wrong with the car. People want to see us. You know our phone number.
PICK UP THE PHONE AND CALL ONCE IN A WHILE!!!!!
IT'S NOT THAT HARD!!!!
WE CALL YOU ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can predict this. The phone will NOT ring. NOBODY will call us. Not even our "Friends" will call us. Not even our family will call us. That says a lot right there.
The only person I know that will call is my Mom. She calls me everyday. She calls to see how we are doing. She calls just to say hi. She calls because she cares. I do the same thing to her. I call her everyday. I pray she is around for a long time. I will miss those calls when they stop. I joke and I roll my eyes at times, but she knows it. We laugh about it. We know that when those calls stop, they will be missed.
I had a friend years ago like that. We talked multiple times a day. I got married and consumed with my new life and stopped calling daily. I wouldn't answer the calls. I just didn't have time. He died a few years ago. I still have his number in my phone. It belongs to someone else now I'm sure. I just can't bring myself to delete the phone number. Everytime I get a new phone. I make sure that the number gets into the new phone.
That's a true friend there.
I have another friend like that. She will call me. I will call her. We hang out weekly. That's a true friend right there. What about everyone else? Will you call us. I doubt it. That's ok though. We'll get by. We have God and each other. That's all we need.
Maybe I will actually have minutes leftover at the end of the month. Wow, I wonder what that is like!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO EVERYONE!!!!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!!
HAPPY CHANUKAH!!!!!!!! (you know who you are :D)
